| So, I haven't blogged in awhile... so, here goes.
Well, first topic: I've deciding to go back to Central for Fall Semester. I feel really good about the decision. Like, really really good. I'm excited to pour into music. And have it poured out to me. I've been writing pretty much all summer. I've only finished 2 songs since June, but they're the best I've written so far, and I've started many more that I'm looking forward to getting done. My main goal is to get myself out of my comfort zone; melodically, lyrically, instrumentally, go figure. I want something new in every song I write. I'm looking forward to learning more in the studio. And booking more shows. I feel like a sponge and I want to completely absorb everything I possibly can. That's the only way I know how to describe it. A sponge. And I really feel there are people at school who can guide me and help me to grow musically. And spiritually. Emotionally. Just generally.
I'm going to miss home though. I don't like being away from my family; genetic and church. If I were to stay in New Jersey, they would be the reason. God is doing something so amazing here and I'm sad to have to leave and not see things unfold first hand. But I know Christ has other plans for me this time of my life, and I'm excited. I'm really excited. And, you know something... Kansas feels just as much home to me as New Jersey. That probably pisses a few people off *coughjamiecough* But I really feel that. Maybe it's because it's the first place I've really been on my own at. I don't even know how to put it into words perfectly, but the best I can do is to say that right now, at this time in my life, my heart is in Kansas. I don't know why, but that's just where God has placed it for now. And you know what they say about following your heart ;)
All to say, I'm content and eager to get back to school and see what God great things God has on the itinerary.
Topic numero dos: I got back from a missions trip in Tijuana, Mexico about a week ago. We built houses for people who were otherwise living in shacks. There were whole communities of homes built on garbage-covered mountains... making it look like these people were living in land fills. They might as well be. Most houses were falling apart. It was a blessing to be able to build a sturdy home for some one. So we built the houses in the morning, and in the afternoon held VBS for the kids in the neighborhood. I liked that the best. Sometimes the language barrier was frustrating, but as the days went on I started remembering a lot of what I'd learned in Spanish class in junior high and high school. It was actually easier to communicate with the kids than it was with the adults we talked to. When we would just be "hanging out" with the kids we would go back and forth, teaching each other how to say certain things in our own language. I learned so much (which a lot of it I forget :-/) but just being able to play with those children and show them love was a great experience. It was just... good. I honestly don't have a lot to say about it. Other than, it was good.
Topic 3: I put in my two week notice for both jobs yesterday. My manager at the Blue Palms was totally happy for me that I was going back to school. He asked me to come back and work next summer. The Pan American was not so thrilled. Which kind of bums me out, but I'm trying not to let it bother me. Maybe I'll get a waitressing job next summer at a nice seafood place... But anyway, I'm going to have a complete week off before I go back to school on the August 30th :)
Random note: You know what, life sucks most of the time. It really does. But like I was telling a friend the other day, nothing in this world lasts save one thing; our relationship with Jesus Christ. And if life sucks, so be it... we're going to lose it one day anyway... but if all the heartache we go through brings us just one step closer to the Living God, it was worth every moment of pain, because that relationship is something we well never ever lose.
Sorry for the random sermon just then. lol. But, really, God's so good.
"Where else can we go? Only You have the words of eternal life."
I really feel that. And I pray to God I never loose sight of it.
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